What The Animals Taught Me This Week

Sunday, Napoleon’s new home manifested so organically after ME coming to the place of letting go how, when, and where this ‘organically’ would take place, that I would not leave Him, unless I felt it was right……I spend the day processing my ‘fear’ of traveling and camping without Him. I witness my feelings and emotions, and realign with my Divine Knowing that no matter what takes place, it is not about my fears, it is about what is right for Him. I get clear with my intention, my prayer, and before I could even release it to the Ethers……I get a call, it is His new home. I witness myself gathering His belongings, and borrowing a vehicle to take Him. He slides right into the Home, meets the other Dogs, and I walk away. Napoleon taught me; we have organically found His forever home. It was so graceful Spirit, and even the names of the roads, the other Dogs, and Humans were so synchronistic!! Cardinal is about seeing the Divinity in even dark times, Wild Turkey is about giving and sharing abundance, and Dove is about peace of mind with Divine Law. After I leave, I feel my awe in the smoothness of how it all took place………Then, the next morning I am processing my grief on my morning meditation run and when I have the ……. Wow, I am SO happy for Him, His new family, all is well, A Pileated Woodpecker rattles out. I look over, and in all the times I have been blessed to see a Pileated, I have never seen one so close AND on the ground. I receive a call when I return to where I am staying. It is Napoleon’s new Caretaker, and I get the report of how well they are doing. I am also told His new name…..Napoleon Blaze is now Napoleon Dynamite!! LOL! I cannot wait to share the full story of Napoleon and all that He has taught me since He began entering my dreams to find Him and finding His forever home.


Monday I am grateful to reveal the Trinity once again……The Trinity has been catching my awareness for about two weeks, and at most auspicious moments when I feel ‘off balance’ by questioning myself. These ‘questions’ come for me as I hear comments, questions, and judgments from others about decisions……some of these ‘questions’ even coming in the form of…..”You should be doing this or this.”

I begin noticing how these comments, questions, and judgmental perspectives have actually crossed my mind…..and are actually ‘vibrations’ I AM putting out, and they are being spoken back to me……I am the one questioning myself, and these people are speaking my thoughts back to me. I notice how I can allow these thoughts to plummet my emotions and vibration, or I can take the opportunity to re-evaluate with my Inner Voice as to what I know in my Heart is the real Truth.

Today, because the Royal Enfield is STILL not complete in getting a new starter cylinoid, (the part has not even shown up at the mechanic and it has been a MONTH waiting)….I am told, by a trusted fellow human Animal that I have not handled this situation correctly, that I should have done this or that…….I should have ‘taken charge’ and gotten angry…….taken the matter into my own hands.

And yet, as I commune with the Marigold, I KNOW, without a doubt, that I followed every Stone in my path. I have been kind, compassionate, and I do not know ‘how’ Spirit will bring the magic of having the part and Bullet ready; but, I have Faith it will be complete. (PS the part was found, next day shipped, and the Bullet was ready! The mechanic said, “I don’t know how this happened, we have never seen anything like this before, but we got your part and she is ready for you!) Now THAT is the Magic of God that I know!

Tuesday, I am gifted with a vehicle for the day to ‘just get out” beyond where I can walk. I am headed back to the living quarters and at the last second decide to pull into a gas station. I am singing “Jesus take the Wheel,” so appropriate with letting go of what happens with the Royal Enfield.

A Lady walks up to my vehicle asking if I could give Her a ride. “Give me just a minute to get a cold drink.” She is Homeless. It begins to downpour…….and our discussion as we drive is all around gratitude, trust, taking things one step at a time, that I am ‘houseless’ too, and grateful I could have this vehicle and be here for her today.

What also felt SO beautiful…..is she wanted to cash a check and give me part of it just for helping Her so much…….She even teared up numerous times. For me, it was all about being grateful I was here to help someone, and knowing there is no way ‘She’ could pay me back.

A ride to one place, turns into a ride to another, and then She asks, “Can you help me cash a check?” (through me) Now, I had just been doing a LOT of prayerful affirming on being “guided, guarded and protected,” for the Compassion Ride coming up and camping……alone. Part of me can feel this check cashing is a scam; however, I stay in Trust that this ‘could’ be real and I do want to help Her.

Spirit affirmed the ‘scam’ by setting up ‘blocks’ at each place we stopped, including my own Credit Union. The ‘REAL’ bank finally surfaces. It is just around the corner…..(the bank on the check!), and She declines to go saying…..”No, they are not open, just take me to my camp, you have done enough…..I cannot ask you to do this, please mam.” I call the bank, “They are open. We have come this far, are you sure? They ARE open.” She insists on NOT going, and taking Her to the camp.

I drop Her off and inside, I hear…..”It was a scam.” I am SO Grateful to Spirit for demonstrating “Guided, Guarded, and Protected” in a natural, loving, peaceful and joyous way. As I walk through the woods sharing in my voice journal……I feel like this joyous, orange, blossomy Mushroom…..just popped out of the ground overnight.

Wednesday the Magic takes flight!! As I take rest, align my gear, and feel aligned to take flight……..even though I know that I will not get a test ride on the Royal Enfield with all the gear………As I watch this pair of Butterflies flying synchronistically together from Flower to Flower…..I feel the Harmony with what is taking place. For me, 2 is a number of harmony…..and Butterfly is all about resurrection. My only part, is to follow the “Lead Butterfly” in my Heart and witness where the winds are taking me.

My gear is ready. I am rested. The part is on its way. Tomorrow, I pick up the RE Bullet, load Her up and pull out on Friday……even though my gut is wrenching, no test ride, or gear balance check. Does a Butterfly get a test ride? Does a Butterfly fear the winds or the journey? Hmmmm. What I do know is, there is a promise in my Heart with the Animals, I made a promise with several Animal Organizations and Spirit Family……and God-willing, I keep them…..I have given my word.


Thursday……as I am loading up my gear onto the RE Bullet at 6:00 at night ……Spider appears. It is a jumping Spider. As I watch and listen, admiring the agility….I hear, “There going to be some hopping around, keep your eyes focused on the white.”  What I begin to feel is…..there is a big change happening; however, it feels real exciting. (Now part of me is going, ‘Duh.’) My gut wrenching is gone, yet I still have this well….”unknown;” however, I am so ready to launch out and ‘see’ what it is…….besides the obvious! LOL

Friday……..6:30 am……the promised pulling out takes place. Before leaving town, I turn back to pick up an item off the helmet I was guided to leave behind. I take off again……

Before reaching the end of town, there is a loud “snap” and the engine stops. I coast to the side of the road. She will not start back up. After an hour, the tow truck comes. Another hour the mechanic shows up……..”I got bad news for ya, the engine dropped a valve and slammed your spark plug shut. You are not going anywhere, anytime soon.” At this time, I am SO grateful I listened to turn back to pick up an item, (Inner voice) instead of calling to have it mailed (My mind)…..I would have been out in the countryside.

Now, I have been hearing Spirit share “A new ride is on the way.” And, it has actually has been offered several times; however, it has just not materialized for different reasons…..even though I have been saying, “YES, I’m ready!”

8 hours later…….by the Grace of Spirit…..She is towed, a second time and by the best, ‘down-home’ mechanic, with the most loving little Dog, and in the pouring rain. “I will call you tomorrow after I open Her up and tell you what you are in for.”

The hardest part for me in this whole day…..swallowing my ‘ego’ to call my Host and ask if I can return……………… What Animal taught me today? The most gracious, generously compassionate human Animals.

From Roadside assistance, to the Tow Truck driver, to the garage ‘boys’ with my ‘gotta step outside and have a ‘female’ moment (good cry and making recommendations), to the generosity of the next mechanic AND coming to pick her up! and my Host retrieving me……and then, I am handed the most delicious home-cooked meal with all my favorites!


Saturday….the human Animal continues to amaze me. I am brought a magazine I adore…..and the reading is absolutely perfect, along with a carafe of coffee.

Great Spirit is not letting me leave Tallahassee until the “New Ride” is demonstrated……and I am now ready. All the pieces have come together…….including the call from the mechanic with the full extent of the damage.

The Royal Enfield Bullet is complete. I remember when I got Her, the song “Shot to the Heart” (with my own words by the way) was like a theme…..and as I look back, I can see how these words manifested so clearly with what all took place during the journey with Her……….priceless, abundantly priceless…….and has brought me to this point of cocooning as I have been doing these past few months, and getting ready for this next launch. Now, Great Spirit, let the magic of the intended ride reveal.




What the Animals Taught Me This Week

Sunday, I am grateful for Cockroach having babies! A perfectly clean home in a tropical environment…..and out in the open. For me, this was a fascinating process to awaken to in the early morning as I get ready to do my morning spiritual practices…. Cockroach is about survival, in all environments. It is using resources, determination, and learning to get through and love our ‘dark, dirty self’ for a better understanding and handling of our spiritual selves with our ‘Napoleon.’

I feel the synchronicity, trust and beauty of this exotic Cockroach Mother having Her babies, sharing with me that my resilience is multiplying into the appropriate areas by allowing my resources and the determination I have for the Animals, the Animal Child Ashram, sharing the message of our Oneness with all Animals to direct my focus, no matter what challenge I face……and it is Great Spirit or Love, which gifts all that we get to experience, including ourselves and this moment with Cockroach Mother.

Monday I am grateful for Lizard literally ‘dropping from the sky’ as I finish my prayers for ‘What I am to ‘do’ next, since the recordings are complete and I am to begin editing…….As I listen, I hear….”Drop that for now, and shift gears to keep your ‘head up’ as you travel.” As I turn on my computer, that listening pops up on the screen! I must begin a process of shifting my documents/work to a ‘free’ and compatible format to use in the future! In other words….publisher, word are expiring and how can I work this, and with others……. and like magic the steps are revealed, fully taken care of through the afternoon….detach and rejuvenate….and I got a week or so to practice before going mobile again. Thank you Lizard for ‘dropping by’!!

Tuesday I am grateful for a long and full day of rain. Nature’s way of saying….take rest….get out for a drive, take a gander by the River, rejuvenate…..feel the cleanse, a renewed flow. The module and document/app work complete for now, the flow begins swooshing to logistics and gear.

Wednesday I am grateful for the Dogs,  for the story of Napoleon getting clearer and clearer, as it continues to write. I am grateful for the continuous reminder of the threes….a thriving, joyous Trinity, whether through Dog, Flower, Hawk, Vulture or otherwise……..and taking deep contemplation on how I allow the integrity of mine to balance, and how it has evolved….none of it bad, not of it good, it just is. I am grateful how every step has been absolutely necessary. I am grateful for “As above, so below…so below, as above.”

Thursday it is all about ‘Napoleon,’ my Animal companion (Dog). You see, I was told it would be best to leave him, to return him to the shelter even. A donation would be offered, and my travels would go so much easier. I heard it, and thought….okay, let’s see, I know I must give Him up to go to India; however, my ‘gut’ or Heart knows He will be gifted organically on the road over the next few months.

SO, I witness myself going through all those self-judgments of surrendering an Animal, all those judgments of ‘others and what they say,’ and I feel how, in doing that, I have turned my power over to those judgments. I was a master in that in the past, and even in knowing this truth, I sometimes have caught myself stewing in it for days. Today, I felt it, all those feelings, sat with them, and this time it became different. I felt those thoughts, those words, those feelings were mine completely…….both inward and outward…..as ‘others’ or as mine projected, it felt the same either way….as the rescuer and the rescued.

Interestingly enough, the ‘judgement’ part that came in halting the rescue, was when the one rescue group who did contact me back about Napoleon, asked about ‘heartworm preventative.’  And this whole thing began, on many levels, because I believed a suggestion given to me in the first place; instead of sticking to what my Heart ‘knew.’ His ‘rescue’ or new home, will happen organically on the next part of this Peregrination (Journey).

Friday it is the Butterfly……..

and the Butterfly even shows up in Trinity after I listen to getting the gear waterproofed, bugproofed, and configured for the motorcycle travel……..and to allow myself with being light and free by accepting the offer to leave the India gear behind till I am ready to actually depart in November……

Saturday the Ducks lure me in to caring for myself and my Heart-calling as I learn to navigate finding National/Federal campsites……..and, staying with where I am in the ‘now’…..I treat one of my Hosts to a ‘Thank you’ culinary experience…..and we take it to venture along a park’s lake.

First there is one baby chick with a dozen or so adult Ducks…..and the Turtles are noticeably awaiting for the young one to return to the water…..”It takes a village to raise a Child!” That is one thought, eh?

Then on the other side, of the lake….. there is two adults with about 3 dozen Chicks!! There are no Turtles over here either…… Hmmmm, it is like an orphanage, daycare, or school eh?

As the walk continues, there is a Duck couple with a group of Chicks……..another hmmmmm…..What we would call ‘normal,’ eh?

As I observe, there is one Chick who is ‘separate’ or not following the others and looks noticeably smaller, like a runt. This runt suddenly takes off paddling, passes the other Chicks and the Adult…….all the other Chicks and, even the two Adults begin following……. this Chick leads them to a new grazing sight……..Hmmmmm, shall we follow the Children?

Continuing to finish circling the lake, the last Duck is pure white, has a unique crown and a single chick……

There are many different ways; however, there is one pure Spirit who created them all, 

Rev Ahowan ICrow





What The Animals Taught Me This Week

Sunday, I share my gratitude for the Squirrel. Squirrel kept making a close appearance to me, over and over throughout the day, just at the moments Great Horned Owl hooting and Crows cawing….as if to say, “Mindfully go through your stash of what you have learned, listen to the Wise One for which to pull out, and the bring the magic cawing.”

This so holds true throughout the day, and even the entire week as the recordings continued for the “Reflections with Animals” video series, as a course and Special Talk series for the ASC Module…….It really was listening to the Wise Owl for the right stories to share from each Peregrination (journey) in USA and India.

Monday, I am so grateful for the Hummingbird who kept flying in front of me….chirping with excitement as if to remind me, “Have fun!” I found myself numerous times really being critical with myself!! Doubting myself when I would finish sharing a story…….

Tuesday, the Cockroach has me in a deepened understanding of how resilient I am. I realize through the recordings, I am reliving the stories, feelings, and learning/teaching all over again……and coming to a much deeper peace as I process through them on this level of sharing them in a different way. I am connecting with the very energies of the experiences, so I can share what I learned…….I am grateful for the Cockroach whom has  lived prolifically through every storm, for millions of years.

Wednesday, I am grateful for the Ants demonstrating harmonious, synchronized teamwork to cross roads which may seem impossible…….it takes teamwork, and each team creates a section…..and with all the sections connected……safe passage for all takes place…….

Later in the day, this demonstrates through a global networking call for the environment! I sit in awe witnessing all the participants, hearing their stories and work, and seeing how everyone is part of the One Consciousness calling each of us into action,  to do our part, and how we are all being led to connect together physically to bridge our resources.

Thursday I am grateful for the Passion Flower reminding me to stay focused my passion, what calls my heart, and is my promise to bloom through me.

Friday the Cloud Animals remind me, I am a passing Cloud; we all are. Sometimes, it is in fleeting moments we get to show our Truth; and while enjoying the view of the journey as we pass through.

Saturday, a “rare for me to see Butterfly” makes an appearance …… synchronistically on the day I finish the recordings for this “Reflections with Animals” course and is ready for the next step of editing. Whoohoo!

What I Learned this Week from the Animals.

Sunday the Lizard demonstrated to me…..”Let the passion of your message be heard through your voice, raise it high and proud, yet humble in the unique delivery I created you to be, and the Cardinal Spirit will fly it on the winds and carry it to heard.”

And what I know to be true….What is True for One, is True for us all….

Monday the Cat cries out for me in a place I have been visiting every morning. As I carry Her, She reminds me to be truly independent one must depend on our Universal Nature for all needs and desires.

Tuesday the Mushroom gleemed to me some new enlightenment is quickly emerging for me …..and this proves true. I have been asking for a way to share the MayaHara Meditation without having gain permission from the producers of the music I normally use, and my ‘big business integrity.’ In my Noon Deeksha meditation, the enlightenment comes…… I hear, “Sing the MayaHara mantra I gave you, record the other mantras yourself, and honor your hometown Spirit Family with using their song. Do this, you are now free.”

Wednesday, Napoleon mirrors to me how enjoyable it is to be comforted in storms. When things get ‘scary,’ we all can use a compassionate touch, to just ‘be’ in loving support, eh? So, what I know to be true…..These companion Animals give it so willingly. I am grateful to be the comfort He accepts. 

Thursday I gratefully learn from the human Animal, a shared determination in making a difference for the Animals, their deserving of respect, we all need hugs, and even more so…….that fumbling on your words, not getting your point across in words the first time,  does not mean you don’t know- what you know- you know. Sometimes ya just got to ‘do it,’ walk through the door, demonstrate it.

Friday!! Napoleon shares in the exhilarated excitement of getting to use a vehicle to take a ride!! We go to check on the Royal Enfield Bullet and her repairs. We are so grateful for the Strawberry Moon and getting to see the largest, longest, blue/yellow tailed Shooting Star! Hoooowwwllllll!! and then Whhhhheeeeeee!!

Saturday the Squirrel repeatedly came to me, over and over throughout the day; even with Napoleon by my side……at these most synchronistic moments of contemplation, “Pull out your nuts of knowledge, knaw on it…..use it.”img_2851

There is One orchestrating Energy breathing every Animal. I am grateful to be an Animal

What Saturday Taught Me

SO….I awake on this Saturday, staying with taking one step in front of another, with a renewed determination to breakthrough this depression. I have been given my ‘homework’ by the Director of the video recordings for the Course…….so being in complete solitude this day, I randomly turn on my music to begin working on the computer and my homework…….and Lady Gaga comes on…………


What a way to “Pray myself in.” It is exactly how I have been feeling. It takes me to the many times I have felt I could not go on….and how it has been the Animals, whether two-legged, mostly four-legged, have kept me going……the love and compassion and trust I have felt from them.


The song is followed with Peaceful feeling the Oneness Deeksha of Moola Mantra invocation….


followed by laughing and dancing as the “Me, Myself, and I” comes on! In our Oneness, it really is just the One Life……..it is, Me, Myself and I….the Holy Trinity playing out this game of Life through, as, and for each one of us…..and for me, personally, in this moment,  I am so grateful for my word of the year………


That all of this is guiding me, leading me to fulfill the promises I have made, to where my heart is calling me


This particular song…..a song introduced to me as I was leaving the building sight of the Animal Child Ashram last fall……follows. It brings me the One Reason……..


Then I claim……I AM the person my Dog knows I am…..There is just no describing how beautifully synchronistic it is to just turn on your music and have Spirit play exactly what you need to take you to the place you need go, for what you need to do.


I hop on the internet to check messages. I receive an email stating I need to fill out a form for my Food Assistance……and I am unsure how to fill it out. It is time for my daily ride, so I decide to ride to the Food Assistance office to get instruction…….Spirit said “no” clearly…..the motorcycle mysteriously would not start…..at all.


Now, in the past I have not had luck working this on the phone, face to face has been glorious; however, I hear my intuition to call….and it went PERFECTLY…..AND, after calling Road Side Assistance, going back out to move the motorcycle for them to get to her…She starts right up…..so I call back to cancel, and take the intended ride I had in mind.


I try out the ‘new to me’ gifted helmet from the roadside with the Action camera attached…..now, I am not one to wear a full face helmet; however, for whatever reason, it is feeling pretty doable.

I go into the store to get my foods, and take back off. I reach up to turn the camera on…it is gone. Now Spirit had already guided me into the right lane to make the right turns needed to return to the store…….traffic had me locked so I could not turn left!

You know that panic of having lost an item gifted to you, the ‘urg’ of loss, as I am tracing my steps…..I had a by the door parking spot which I intended….I looked under the car that pulled into the spot, go through the store, and back out knowing I must surrender to the demise…….and then, I look back and see the camera almost under the tire of the car…


Thank you Great Spirit!!!


And I am grateful for my sustenance!! And I can see how I am being slowly returned to a diet without a refrigerator


As I pray myself in to return to my homework….I notice Heart-shaped vines and how they are traveling up to Tree Trunks…

Yet, when at the back door of the apartment…..It is only One Tree Trunk

This Cicada flys into me and lands……and I hear, “At some angles may look like two, however, when you come out of your shell, it is always just one.” So yeah, I have been here before……..I am to root, yet I am to travel….for example.


Then Two Hawks screech out and fly over ………………………




My Week With the Animals

I am grateful for the first true recording day….and the beautiful guidance in keeping it focused with the Animals and the transformations we made together as I took the Universal Principles and applied them honestly within my consciousness.

“Keep to the Core message, the Ants will take it from there.” I am grateful how I am guided to keep to the Core Message and the beauty of how this applies with all the Animals. One can barely see the Ants; however, they are trailing their parts back home.


Monday, after the first recording for the “Reflections with Animals” video recording; I am feeling my Unique Message and reconnected with that Aggressive Pinpoint Focus and am synchronistically gifted a unique Shark Tooth! I am even more grateful for the joyous, uplifting Spirit from whom the gift was received.


Tuesday; during the recordings, and this process of sharing the stories from my years of rescuing, building the K-9 B&B/Doggie Daycare; I am reminded;  “I am loyal like a Dog.” I reconnect with how this can be my downfall and it can also be my blessing……either way, it all done from an intention of Love. Something may irritate me; I recognize it is not the someone or soul, it is not the Love they are, or the mirror they demonstrate to me……it is how I perceive it, and how I choose to work with it. I love them, am loyal to them, and will give me best. I recall in my years of rescues how many have bitten me, and yet I understand and love them anyway.


I feel the Trust Napoleon has to keep him safe during the midnight Thunder in our tent. Spirit has shared at the core of every Culture or original Tenants, we are here to learn and care for the Animals as we would choose to be cared for……I know I lean into my Trust, and truly enjoy being comforted.

Wednesday, I am given notice of how this seeming tangled web of my past few years’ experiences has me catching a greater, proven message. I am wrapping it up in a package one strand at a time.


Thursday, as I squat and place my hand on Mother Earth in gratitude for freeing myself, a Raccoon (2nd daytime appearance in one week, different locations) begins to walk upon me. I was hearing how to use my ‘different masks’ in making the MayaHara Meditation completely my own so I can make it available.


On Friday, Hawk circles and screeches by numerous numbers and varieties; reminding me continuously, I am the Messenger, the Message, and the one receiving the Message…..and thus is so evidently so as I work with my director/producer. Sometimes, it is so helpful to hear your own message repeated back to you, how other perceive and hear it, and a different angle to bring out your best……I am also so grateful to look up


and see that it is time to fly in and take my place in the ribs of a platform I have been praying for to help get the message of the Animals out into the world. I am gifted with an opportunity………I see it, thank you for the clarity Great Spirit, my action is next.


Hummingbird graces me, takes quite an interest in buzzing around me and sharing, “tweet, tweet” as if in gratitude together, how I capture my Joy when I am confident, centered, focused, and taking action as ‘me’…..and how good it felt to claim my Rib spot, so I can share my Nectar…..and I can feel how a ‘right platform’ is building and gaining momentum.


I am grateful for a day in the Forest of Tree Animals on Saturday, my 7th-day of rest and begin venturing…..the strength, the roots, the expansion, and most notably for me today….. I hear, “Find me a four-leaf Clover” however, there is no real purpose, just a whisper……At the end of the walk, this is noticed….Jack-in-the-Pulpit…..laying over what could be a large four leaf Clover…….This Jack has not quite risen out of his pulpit yet.

Nope…..I am not ready yet; so I am staying offline, continuing to reorganize, record, listen, write, and bring this mush to some substance.



What My Week Taught Me

My week begins with a Sunday visitor after my morning spiritual rituals…….

img_2531teaching me that a ‘Dream of the Night’ (Moth) rooted in Joy is out in the morning Sun for me to behold and appreciate…..so as I return into the the apartment, everything in it is to be rearranged, once again (the 4th and I believe last time.) It is extremely good and demonstrative of the evolving awareness and flow of our time here together; however, admittedly, it stifled me at first. I am grateful it had me taking a long, insightful look over the next few days with what is taking place, the gift of what I bring to places I visit and pray for………not only others, but because I know it comes through myself……so it is all me, and yet it is not me.

I am grateful each rearranging has been completely mutual, coordinated, synchronized. Even though this time ‘felt’ different. I have shared and honored, “This is not ‘my place,’ what do you want?” when asked up to now; however, this time it is made perfectly clear I am a visitor when I am asked to engage in helping. In the process of it all taking place, was a demanding vibration….even though I could see the good and the answer to all our requests. What I did not see was my “Napoleon” with the ASC module’s recording space……I also got to witness how I have evolved in staying gratefully quiet, compassionate with the process, and staying helpful…..in the moment…..

Once the Blessed Rearrangement completes, I want to fly off……….


However, Napoleon brings me the Alligator energies, the curious fun of looking at all the angles…


Then, Napoleon alerts me to a visitor, the promise of Caterpillar….seeming to glow the joy and magic; and it reminds me to fly with it……..well, I am in the mush currently, reconstructing all my pieces.


The Fire Ants get my Right Foot really good….. The team has stung me, and as I face my own responsibility in this….. I have no better Teacher than who I am here with….”Thank you Great Spirit!” I know without a doubt is preparing for the Animal Child Ashram; however, it does not make this easy. There is a part of me, admittedly feels defeated.

Monday…..The medicine of the Fire Ants, Napoleon, My Stand-up Madonna…20170522_124937462_iOS

and being unable emotionally to call my prayer partner, has me at a moment of decision……I am in the deep depression….. then, gratefully the Amino Acids arrive to begin resetting hormones….and my heart empathizes with Napoleon being ill. As I do the ‘Hoppo’opono prayer with him, I feel how grateful I am at how He is demonstrating the energetic releasing of my depression.


I am so grateful for the Inner Wisdom as I have ‘sat with myself’ since the Storm (in all those ways) came through that Sunday, including taking out Wifi/cable, and now here on Tuesday, it is still out. The mutually deep, compassionate, honest, respectful communication between my Host and myself takes us to a deeper appreciation and also brings about trial runs in the studio for the next course in the ASC module……By the way, Napoleon is bright-eyed, healthy, and has his appetite back!!


However, on Wednesday, I learn I must complete a full timeline for the Video recording of the Stories for the Studio time…….and, it is confirmed in a most interesting way, I will be leaving the end of June and all recordings will be complete…..so my fasting begins till the Timeline outline up to the end of the first 50 state Peregrination begins.


Napoleon and I get the home all dry, packed back up……


and I am so grateful how I can feel the Amino Acids kicking in…


and I am reminded of the lone Ceremony I had Sunday of letting the tearful Goddess go.

..my depression is beginning to lift; and I am so grateful how through even the toughest (what I can only term ‘smoosh,’ emotional weeks on a personal level) there is a peace, a harmony, and compassionate energy with all of us working together; with yet a strong “on our own,” focus, and clear boundaries. There is absolutely no reason or need to run….The Buffalo faces it, the Elephant clears through it, and the Goat makes every leap surefooted…..


The power of the mind….the vibrational attraction….is clear on Thursday as I complete the early portion of the timeline, and take a walk. Dirtbikes and fourwheeler being ridden by some young human animals…..big part of my childhood!….


I cannot resist any longer ….. I hear you Daniel Boone …. every time I pass, I hear, “Your blazing new trail, no one said it was easy….simple, not easy…..one step at a time.”

Grateful internet returns, though Spirit already had me started editing through my external hardrive storage to complete the Timeline by my deadline….and honor my Host.


Yes, I am….and I am grateful for the reminder……and Napoleon demonstrates this to me clearly…….and I am told, once again to begin the “Napoleon Blog.”……..for right now, I am clearly learning another level of Independence…..and I am grateful He is keeping my heart open with purpose.

Friday I am reminded of my word for the year, “Faith,” through the church sign I pass every morning. I changed this morning.


Exactly….Faith and Trust….that is how I have gotten this far, and my love for the Animals. Faith Spirit gives me the clarity with the steps, strength to move forward, peace with all my relations, supply for all needed to be done and cared for, loving guidance in all actions, everything…….I can see that Spirit, quite frankly, …with a lot of things…..deepening this in me…..along with my gratitude.

Then, I receive the most amazing compliment about how I have been handling everything with such Grace….that if this past week or so had been ‘theirs,’ it would have been done & over for them, that they would have left immediately, angrily. I know the thoughts were in my mind; however, that is not my real Heart…those were thoughts, feelings, and I left them in the woods……My Heart, is like the Heart of …..Animals.


My Saturday, the wrap up of the week……………………….I will prepare in another entry.

Arigato……Mitake Oyasin